It is so hard feeling inadequate or like you aren't good enough for something or someone. I have been pretty good about not letting it get me down though...knowing that God is watching over me and that He knows the reason behind everything. But sometimes it is so hard to see. Sometimes I don't want to see....I just want to, need to, let it all out and just feel sad. Tonight would be that night.
But I am grateful for this church that I am a part of, and for the knowledge that I have that everything will work out how it is supposed to, no matter how disappointed I may be in the moment. I'm not just talking about past things like not getting into the nursing program, or not receiving previous jobs I've applied for and had interviews I felt really good about. I'm talking about any future stuff coming my way, too, 'cuz life is full of disappointments. I just need to let myself become stronger from these experiences.
Here are some quotes I came across and liked:
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." - Jimmy Dean, Actor, Singer and Businessman
"We keep going back, stronger, not weaker, because we will not allow rejection to beat us down. It will only strengthen our resolve. To be successful there is no other way." - Earl G. Graves
One last quote:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. -- Proverbs 3:5-6
I'm just happy that I know of at least 4 things that I will never be rejected from: my kitty and dog, my Family, and my God. I can't wait to go home and be welcomed by warm hugs from them this weekend!! Then from there, I'll see why my life has to offer. Just taking it one. step. at. a. time.
