I knew serving a mission was a possibility for me. . .
I feel so lucky.
In just 21 days, I will be taking upon me the name of Christ and representing Him and His church as a missionary. At this point in time, I am overcome with so many different emotions, some even contradicting each other. But mostly I have been feeling extremely inadequate.
Inadequate how? Well, just wondering if my testimony is strong enough, if I'm strong enough. If I know the gospel well enough to teach, and those types of things. But I am coming to realize that: it's okay. It's okay for me to feel inadequate. I should feel inadequate because ya know what? I AM. We are all inadequate. We become adequate through and with God!
I read in Alma chapter 26 recently....and it's a chapter I have come to love. It has given me a lot of comfort. In verse 7 it basically says that the missionaries are in the hands of the Lord; the Lord watches and protects His missionaries!
The verse I want to talk about though, is verse 12. It states: "Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever."
I love how it says we are nothing, but it goes on to say that in God's strength, we can do ALL things.
So, I guess I'll allow myself to continue to feel inadequate, and I will just have the faith that by allowing the Spirit to be my guide and letting God stand by me, I will be able to accomplish anything. I won't be inadequate.